In October it will be 5 years since I lost my father and 2 since I lost my mother.. I was extremely close to my parents. My mom was my best friend. I was only 17 when my father passed and 21 when my mom did. I've been having dreams since they died about them coming back and dying again or of them just suffering and dying. Since they have passed I have gotten engaged moved into an apartment and now my wedding is about 3 months away.. I seem to think about my parents daily.. I just woke up from two horrible dreams of my mom passing.. I can't remember the first one but the second goes like this...

I was having a party thrown by my parents at the place where I'm actually having my wedding.. I had to do a big speech and all I remember is a doctor calling saying my mom is in the hospital and that she might not make it..She initially came in for not being able to breathe.. I keep looking for her in the bleachers all of the sudden we're at some stadium but I couldn't find her anywhere.. I saw all my relatives and even friends then in my family spot I only saw my sister not my dad or mom.. So then I go home to get ready to go the catering place for the party and the doctor calls and says my mom is gone... I start screaming "No, she can't be.. Don't give up, please!" But they say she's gone sorry.. So then me and my sister are getting dressed but then my mom is in the house.. but she's dead so we can't talk to her but she's actually doing things. Then my fianc??s alarm woke me up..

I'm sorry for the long story but I don't know what to do.. I mean I can't understand this... It is really starting to scare me.. I hate to say it because I love my parents so much but just wish they wouldn't die in all my dreams. 

Just curious if the not being able to breathe part was about me.. since I have been having trouble breathing.. I think it's my allergies.