hello there. new user, long time dreamer.
this sensation is hard to explain so please bare with me. for probably a couple of years now, ive had a state of "half dream" that i wake to every now and again. i "wake up" to my room, but with an overall paralysis of my body. i cant physically move, or make any sounds. when i move though, i actually feel like im moving, but in a held down manner if that makes sense. i feel as though im chained to my body when i make movements, the movements are heavy and my body isn't physically moving when i gaze over myself. i can't detatch myself from my body. i feel extremely heavy, struggle to breathe, and always have a drastic sense of panic. my response to "waking" in this state is to throw myself around in a fit (without any physical movement from my body)... my aim is to make sudden sharp movements in the hope that it wakes me up. i do this for a while, making it feel like an intense struggle and i end up waking up in a sudden jolt and gasp for air.
why ive been calling it a "half-dream" is because it feels distinctly different from a dream while still maintaining a dream-like quality to it, also, i am relatively conscious in this state and am able to think and reason. on top of this when i truely wake, my real environment is exactly the same as when i wake to it in my "half-dream" state. there have been subtle differences in the past however such as my door being open in the "half-dream" while it is closed when i wake in real life.
just wondering if anyone else has had this same experience or can shed any light on this...
thanks
