Last night, I had a crazy dream.  Normally, I don't even remember them, but this one had stuck with me and its as if, its always right there in the back of my mind..

The dream

I walked into this room by myself.  It was huge, like a regular store at night, but it was empty.  It was dark, but there was enough light to cast shadows and for me to see my way.  The ceiling had those tiles that are big and will lift up.  I walked through the store, staying to the side, almost against the wall.  Suddenly, I was a huge black panther coming at me.  Then, I notice they are crawling out of the ceiling.  There are also jaguars, black leopards with the spots, and also regular leopards.  The all seem to be coming at me, but the jaguars and leopards step back from the panthers as it swats them away and they hiss.  I had a gun, one handed shooting, I just kept shooting the panthers, leaving them to fall to the ground dead, very bloody.  Then, I woke up...

This dream is really bothering me.  My little sister just signed a "do not resuscitate" form, and she is in complete kidney failure with congestive heart failure, at the ripe age of 26.  I'm very worried.  Does this dream mean me?  Or, could it be someone else in my life?  Please, I am begging someone to help me better understand this dream.

Thank you for the reply!!!  I am definitely taking what you said to heart.  I feel that it might be right.  I portray myself as somewhat of a confident person, that I can handle all of this.  I mean, cmon, this is my little sister.  I know that when she does die, I won't be able to handle it, and I just pray that I don't lose myself in the process.  I play like nothing is bothering me though.  She had just signed the papers before I had the dreams, and when I sat down and read them, I did everything I could, not to cry, which came out as anger. 

Thank you for your insight!  I will try to face my fears and hopefully that will help.  Sometimes, I feel like I just need to cry, but I can't bring myself to do it.  I have to stay strong, for my mom, my kids, and my sisters..  Someone has to be the strong one. 

Thank you!

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