Hi everyone, I'm Keks2217..excited about joining the forum, as I'm a firm believer that dreams mean a lot about our lives/ourselves and I've had a ton in mylife that stick out to me. 

Current situation in my waking life - biggest drama ever!  I'm a married female with two young children.  I was in an extremely tight affair w/ another married female also with two kids about 1 1/2 yrs ago.  Several months ago, she went "nuts" because of our relationship...went to a psych ward, used to threaten me and cut herself and overdose on pain meds if I spoke of leaving her, I had to end our relationship and confessed to my husband.  I kept trying to avoid her (even though I missed her and hoped to resolve our relationship better) by changing my phone numbers, moving away, and I put a restraining order on her of which she violated extremely and I had to put her in jail, hardest thing in my life to do.  We have had no contact for about 4 months now.  (You might see a lot of my dreams I post may end up relating to this huge experience in one way or another).  Even though I've built the strength to abandon that toxic relationship, I currently have many struggles with my husband. 

May 22 dream - I was going grocery shopping at a store by myself, then my ex-lover/best friend and her husband and two kids pulled up by me to go shopping too, I?m sure they saw me.  I kept proceeding to the store.  Inside, I have my two kids with me.  Then, my ex-lover comes in the area I?m in first, followed by her family.  She sees me but ignores me.  My daughter calls her children's names as she sees them, as they were great friends and my daughter still misses them.  That whole family is ignoring me.  It starts to get hard on me. 
Later, I?m outside of the store, sitting on a railing, looking somewhat sad.  My ex-lover runs out to the car with someone else, she?s happy and fun-loving?she has braces on, signifying to me that a lot of change has already happened to her that I'm unaware of, and it sunk in more I have nothing to do with her life anymore.  I?m back in the store, I?m talking to my ex-lover's husband and ask him, ?so, how are you guys doing??  He says, ?pretty good, actually.?  He had braces on too.  Then he left.  I?m staying in the store for some birthday party for someone we don?t even know.  I stay to keep my kids involved.  Now, my daughter is an obese child, and I feel embarrassed by her.  I had also abandoned my baby son in another area of the store, and my ex-lover's husband had to tell me where he was.  I felt feelings of loneliness, sadness, like I?m the one who is needy of her.  I woke up sad and discouraged.

In the last month, I've also had a couple of dreams of me climbing out of an at first seemingly impossible deep pit or hill, and with all my strength, I made it up, out and over it! 

Any thoughts greatly appreciated! Thanks in advance.     

Wonderful.  I appreciate your input and time JayRae.