(Let me apologize if this is a hard read. I typed the dream as similarly as my experience was from this morning... so please bear. The " me " in my dreams deals alot of self-thoughts, emotions, as opposed to of a lot of action)

Hi All,

I do currently have a boyfriend of 4 years. We are doing long-distance now for about 6 months though it's really been 2.5 months since we last saw each other. We've also never seriously discussed talks of marriage or any of that sort. Only jokes... some questions about preferences but never deep into it. So here's my dream...

Basically we are in this asian (local) market in the state that I'm in (he is in NY right now), aka the state he left from to start his job. A lot of people probably our friends and acquaintances are around surrounding the store. We are localized in the vegetable aisles.

I am very confused as to what is going on, as he leads me from one ingredient to another. First miso soup, then an image of green onions, and a few other that I forget... slowly as he led me one to another, I started connecting the dots recalling the line of how Japanese men propose to women asking if they will cook miso soup for them everyday (meaning will you marry me?). It's a very outdated tagline, but it popped it my mind and soon he started to stand still, looking at me... barely able to speak out words coherently...

Everyone starts to smile I feel, and I start feeling nervous even though I still can't believe it's happening. The feeling is more like a distrust "omg is he really doing this?" more than one of a pleasant surprise like "omg! this is so romantic, i've been waiting for this!! GAH!"

He starts to proceed with the words of proposal but I don't think I ever heard the actual question in the dream. The next sequence brings me to a flash of imagery- heart shaped diamond in center with pink diamonds around the ring. A single white diamond is in the center of the heart-shaped design. It appears to be on my finger... cannot remember which hand or finger.

At the moment I stare at this god awful ring (it's really way too girly for my taste, but nonetheless it is very romantic feminine pretty that most would swoon over), I feel a bit of apprehension (not in a positive way)... and that's when I remember that "hey I'm just found out I'm pregnant but I forgot to tell him before we came here". I had planned to tell him right away after I found out because we are not married, being an unwed mother does not look good with my family. But because of all the commotion of the grocery store, the 50%happy 50%bad news was overshadowed. Apparently, the me in this dream at this point is referring to a previous dream I had that same night where I find out I am like 2 weeks pregnant...

That's about how it slowly fades and I wake up. I tried to stay asleep/lucid so I could hear the words of proposal but it didn't work.

Any clue as to what this dream might mean? Some life details... the image of the green onions was probably the same picture of the green onions he was actually having for his miso soup last night. He sent me a text message of the green onions. I definitely have not seen the design of the ring before, and I'm pretty sure I would not chose it to wear even if casually. Too girly, too flashy for my taste, and above all for an engagement ring. I was surprised by all the diamond studs since I kept thinking "this must've cost money".

How I really feel about it... to be honest, I was very happy about the dream. I felt a surge of positive energy as I started my day out of bed. In reality, if it really happened I think I'd react in the same cautious and reluctant manner. I do think of marrying him in the future, but just not now... I'd be content with just knowing he would even want to marry me at this point in time. We both have to jumpstart our careers first (imo). Also relationship-wise we are decent... I know it sounds bad, but we had a very very happy beginning, so we have a very solid foundation, something to lean on when we struggle through the reality of relationships (and living together). but being together for so long... Heh. It's normal I believe. We're both occupied with a lot of other factors in life... so it cannot be lovey dovey everyday anymore.

I am happy but we have the normal couple fights, as well as some pretty serious fights where we both felt like marriage was out of the question. Nonetheless, I love him very dearly.

I'm pretty sure I had two dreams, but it could've very well been that the me being proposed to actually had a dream within the timeframe of the dream.

My dreams are pretty weird and complicated. I often remember dreaming that I had a dream in my dreams. It's like a history log that transfers to each new dream I have next.

Sorry if I'm over the place.