So last night i had a crazy and very upsetting dream...

I was in a house i didnt know and my fiance was there.  He was going somewhere [not sure where...] and he told me he would be back in a bit.  He gave me a kiss goodbye and that was the last time i saw him...

Come to find out, he had died.  I cant remember what happened exactly, i just remember that it was tragic and unexpected.  I cried and cried and wailed and screamed.  It was like my heart was just broken and there was no consoling me.

Eventually i was surrounded by friends and family- but i couldnt see their faces.  Suddenly, my abusive ex-boyfriend [who also happens to kinda be his friend] was sitting in front of me.  I said through gritted teeth: "It should have been you.  I wish it had been you.  I hate you."

I was so angry and i just knew he had had something to do with it.

I woke up and instantly started crying and woke up my fiance in the process.  It was like the sadness and the heart wrenching feeling i had in the dream wouldnt leave me- STILL wont leave me! Even though he is safe and sound...  I just cant help but wonder what it means. 

Can anybody help me??