A father represents protection, security, authority, discipline, and strength.

Do you feel as though you need protection from something, or someone?
Are you feeling a need for security, possibly financial?
Are there things that need repairing, in the home as well as in your personal life?
Do you feel as though your life lacks direction and discipline?
Have you seen, or talked with your Father recently?
Did he ever tell you why he left, or 'kicked you out'?

When we are kids, we lack direction. Our parents are there, not only to protect us, and provide for us....they're also there to point us in the right direction, and keep us on track. No doubt your Mom did the best she could. But, being separated from your father at such a young age, leaves your life feeling 'unbalanced'.
Being sick doesn't help. When we're sick, we naturally want to feel better. Mom and Dad always seem to know just what to do. They have the magic touch....called love. Even though Mom is there with her gentle touch, sometimes we still need Daddy's strong arms for that extra support and protection.

Hope that helps you some, good luck.