I get the feeling that you were really close with your dad. You have to understand that we all are precious lambs of GOD, sometimes it is necessary to have a sacrifice just so the "plan" can be continued. We have to remind ourselves that our life is based on 3 stages . birth, life, and death. when we go through these stages sometimes we are also chosen, not for reason one might assume , but to make a impact to saves others, like a reality check. Now we all get stooped ( down or even depressed), due to our nature, but we also must have clarity and understanding that everyone is for the better. You have this dream, because you are refusing to let go, refusing to acknowledge something that is trying to reach you. Only you would really know that (and the one and only). These parts that you carry are like parts ..i wanna say , parts of yourself and or him that you hold close, and you could have blamed yourself for something. Do you understand? Be strong that all things are being kept and that this had to happen, that we all walk a Divine path that is here to save us. You have allot of good on your side, and he understands and is asking you to accept this. Look at this from a different perspective .. a positive one.  Sometimes those coincidences that we have are just reminders that someone still have your back.  "I always say take this cup away from me ... so I can follow you lead"

Anyway that what I have and came to me. I pray that you will have a open heart, peace love and blessing  - Dena